Do you ever get your hopes up and then have them smashed into a million little pieces? I have always been a cautiously optimistic person, but sometimes I do allow the hopes to fly way too high. This past week, a friend of mine let me know that the company she works for doing in-home data entry was hiring. I have been waiting for them to hire for over a year. I was SO excited, I immediately applied and she sent an email in saying how great I would be at the job. I kinda thought that since I had an "in"with an employee, I would have an extra great chance of getting the job. Well, I just opened my email and got my rejection letter. Sad. It doesn't even begin to explain how I feel right now. I don't know what else to do. Jesse is literally working himself to death and going to school full time. I have such guilt that I'm not contributing in any way financially. He reassures me that he is fine and he knows I am taking care of the kids, house, etc. He really doesn't expect anything else from me, but I bring the guilt on myself. I have even applied to work graveyards at nearby grocery stores. ANYTHING to be able to help, but I've had no luck with that either. I just assumed that would be too hard physically and wasn't the answer to my prayers. That's why I was so excited to apply for a great in-home job. I guess I just have to keep on searching, sometimes life sucks.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Easily Rejected
Do you ever get your hopes up and then have them smashed into a million little pieces? I have always been a cautiously optimistic person, but sometimes I do allow the hopes to fly way too high. This past week, a friend of mine let me know that the company she works for doing in-home data entry was hiring. I have been waiting for them to hire for over a year. I was SO excited, I immediately applied and she sent an email in saying how great I would be at the job. I kinda thought that since I had an "in"with an employee, I would have an extra great chance of getting the job. Well, I just opened my email and got my rejection letter. Sad. It doesn't even begin to explain how I feel right now. I don't know what else to do. Jesse is literally working himself to death and going to school full time. I have such guilt that I'm not contributing in any way financially. He reassures me that he is fine and he knows I am taking care of the kids, house, etc. He really doesn't expect anything else from me, but I bring the guilt on myself. I have even applied to work graveyards at nearby grocery stores. ANYTHING to be able to help, but I've had no luck with that either. I just assumed that would be too hard physically and wasn't the answer to my prayers. That's why I was so excited to apply for a great in-home job. I guess I just have to keep on searching, sometimes life sucks.
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Kriss, I am so sorry but please don't be so hard on yourself. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. We may not see the whole picture now but some times looking back we can. I know the Lord has a plan for you and it will work out in the end. Being a homemaker is a hard job and you are doing great. Keep your head up. Just stay strong for you and your family and DON'T QUIT.
Yep, the right thing will come along. Hang in there. But seriously, that company is missing out. You and I have ROCKIN' data entry skills!
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